32 weeks pregnant: not just a river in Egypt
A pregnancy update at 32 weeks pregnant:
Am I in denial about the new baby’s imminent arrival? Very possibly…It’s not that I’m not excited – I really am, every time I see a newborn I’m overwhelmed with the loveliness of thoughts of what’s to come – it’s just that I’m more than happy to wait. And at the moment I’m still at a liminal stage where it seems like a long wait, so that’s fine.
But I’m 32 weeks pregnant already (33 weeks at the time of posting). That’s less than two months. The house isn’t finished, I don’t finish work for a while, nothing’s really ready. Should we be panicking?
When you already have children, things pretty much carry on as before when you’re pregnant, because they have to. There’s no long periods of introspection, lie-ins or naps on demand. I’m feeling fine and have kept going at normal high-speed, in the style of I am pregnant women, hear me roar. It doesn’t seem like anything will change as nothing has changed. It’s all the same at the moment, just with a big bump.
But things have been pretty hectic recently with home, house, work and life. And on Wednesday evening, at 32 weeks pregnant, everything came to a head and all at once seemed so overwhelming I had a moment and sobbed during a George Clarke’s Amazing Spaces. Of all things. It was a culmination of:
* How will I cope with two children when just the one can be so all-consuming and demanding?
* I’ve still not downloaded any hypnobirthing MP3s yet
* Been up since 6.15am
* Have I even done any pelvic floor exercises this time?
* Does that even matter, the speed at which I gave birth last time…
* Oh right, I have to push another baby out of there again soon, apprehensive but know I shouldn’t be
* Am I even going to get five minutes to myself before the baby comes?
* What if they are early?
* Will we ever finish the house?
So I was immediately packed off to bed in my sad state of self-pity city.
I did feel better in the morning, admittedly. And there is an end in sight, finally. Alex is off for a week to finish the painting, there’s about one day of finishing to be done on the kitchen – then no more building work – and we’re having carpets put down this weekend which I think will make a huge difference. And after that? I think we can be go go go on the baby prep. As we still have everything from last time, it’s not like we have to buy lots. And I’ve made lots of lists, which is surely the start of being organised, right? Just need to remember the pelvic floor.
I’ve compiled all my baby 2 blog posts into one page (although this needs updating! Another one for the list). You can also read more maternity updates at 31 weeks, 30 weeks pregnant, 29 weeks pregnant, 28 weeks, 27 weeks, 26 weeks, 25 weeks, 24 weeks, 22 weeks, 21 weeks, 20 weeks, 19 weeks, 18 weeks, week 17, week 16, week 15, week 14, and the first trimester.